Sometimes I wish
I could have finished this
take the last breath
And stop breathing forever.

But then I remember that
If I do that there are
Still people who would
Be hurt and they don’t deserve that.

I wish I could have learned
The first time… but I didn’t.
I’ve let them break my shield
And now I’m broken again.

I need to keep remembering
To breathe, breath after breath
I make myself do it to take
Another breath, to make another move.

It’s hard to fight the pain
The feeling of a broken self
But I have to live with this
I have to keep breathing

So I won’t break apart…
I try to continue walking
Looking at sky
Avoiding the pain on earth
Dreaming the peace of the  sky.

But I need to stop dreaming
I will never reach the peace
The pain is my friend
The only one I know will be forever with me

I look back and regret it
Why didn’t I learn my lesson?
Why do I keep trying?
I thought my shield was unbreakable.

But it’s broken again
And I need to start over
Build a new one a stronger one
And this time… this time I have to learn my lesson.

Because I don’t know
How much longer
I’ll be able to keep breathing
To keep fighting this war I
Know I’ve lost long ago

Who knows maybe this is my last breath
Maybe it will end tonight
Maybe I won’t feel it anymore
But what do I have left if I don’t feel the pain

So once again I keep breathing
I keep walking
I keep fighting for another breath…